2003-07-29 - 10:46 p.m.
It's been too long since I last wrote.
I have just returned from vacation at my home on the coast.
I was 5 days there and they were filled with memories of my former life.
It is so sad to see my children all grown. I wish that I could have just one day of their childhood back so that I could hold them once again and make them happy beyond belief with the simple thing... a new toy, a picnic, a trip to disneyland.
I called my 21 year old son and told him what a good boy he was. He asked me if I was drunk.
I wish that I was a mother again, but each month I get my period and all of my hopes are crushed.
My Dennis is stubborn and will not get any help to have children.
I am afraid that by the time he comes around it will be too late.
Life is so damn short.